Since everyone is talking about their own problems, i shall join in too. But first.. let me talk about what happen to me last weekend. Fell sick when i was at dear's place. Made him an apple cake. It's quite nice except that i put too much flour. ._. So anyway, all plans were cancelled. His parents took care of me which i was really touched. I had fever, sore throat, flu and cough. And after seeing the doctor, my medicine cost us $90! And inclusive of about 6 - 7 medicines. Oh my god! And since the antibiotics are very strong and my body can't take it, i always vomit after that.
So anyway, yesterday dear was allowed to book out for a while. So we went to watch a movie "High School Musical 3: Senior Year". Dear was very short temper due to him not having enough sleep. So after the movie, we quarrelled again. It was quite bad. Everyone knows that in a relationship, one has to give in more than the other. I don't know if i'm the one who give in more or him but it doesn't matter because i feel that he gives in more than i do. And like Alif said, i have temper issues which i agree. But i'm also tired of him throwing his temper for nothing whenever he's tired and he doesn't say sorry after doing that. I realise i'm always the one who ends up saying sorry irregardless of whether i'm the one who's in the wrong. In order to just stop worsening the fight, i just keep mum about some things which i want to say because i know it'll just make it worse. Whenever he's tired, everything he say just sounds so frustrating like as if the whole world did something wrong to him. Can't even start a proper conversation before he blows his top. It's something i know i have to endure because that's him but i get tired too. I don't know how long i can keep this up. He also said so many things that broke my heart so much. Yesterday cried until i vomitted. This afternoon vomitted too.
I really hate my mom and i'm getting so tired of her. I really hate her for keep calling me cheap and such a shameless slut. Why do i have such a mom?! Everytime i go over to dear's place to stay over, i just wish to stay there and not go home. At first i had some progress with my job hunting but until now, i still haven't got any replies. My family and myself is starting to stress myself out. I'm starting to get tired of this home.
Where's that person when you need someone to talk to? I'm losing my friends. Is it because of the way i handle my time? I hardly even talk to yanbing now, nor do i often meet her. Even when we do go out together, i don't know what to say to her. Is it because we're both very quiet people or is it because we so long haven't seen or talk to one another that we don't know what to say? The only friend that i've been hanging out and keeping in touch is Chuan hui. Dear always ask me not to spend all my time on him. Try to spend time with friends so that i won't lose any more friends. But how? Everyone is only free on weekends and i have to spend my weekends with him. How can i spend my time with my other friends? *sigh*
Nowadays since i'm so free, i'm starting to learn more and more recipes. Erm.. as in baking, not cooking food. I don't have that much money to buy all the ingredients to cook up a meal. Wait till i have money to whip up a meal or a lunchbox. Made apple cake last week using Rina (Qing ren) recipe. It's nice. ^^ Wanted to whip up chocolate mousse but since i'm sick, i can't eat so i decided not to. And since this sunday is dear and i's 1 year anniversary, i decided to make a batch of peanut butter cookies for him because i couldn't find any nice gifts for him. =.=
End of my rants
23 October, 2008, 8:36 PM
Day 133....
Time to update about my job hunting! Lalala~ so anyway, some of you may know.. several agencies have called me and offered me jobs. So far, I've only been to 4 agencies officially for an interview. The earliest one was Success (Ferlyn), Recruit Express (Doreen), Kelly Services (Jason) and last but not least, JAC Recruitment (Madeline). So far the agents that i've met were quite good to me so lucky me! ^^ I haven't accepted any jobs from Jason but i only went there for an interview because he wanted to know what kind of job i was looking for and give me some advice. After that interview, i thought he was a pretty good agent. And so he was when he proved to me on Tuesday. So anyway, for the past 3 days, I've been to interviews at 3 different places. On Tues, I went to JAC Recruitment for an interview with Madeline. On my way there, Jason called me again to offer me another job but this time an IT job. (BTW, he's not from the IT department but he promised to pass my resume around his company to keep a lookout for me for IT jobs and he really did it! Unlike other agents who just call me and say help me keep a lookout but never call back.) So anyway, he said training will be provided and although the job scope is not the one i'm looking for but i thought i just gave it a shot and go for the interview. So on Wed which is yesterday, I went to Tuas to look for Singapore Epson (the IT job that i applied through JAC recruitment) for the interview. And since the job i applied for is web programming, so definitely they will test me on my programming skills. A little difficult for me because my skills are like so rusty but i thought the interview went quite well.. i guess. =\ Took more than 1 hour for that interview which is most probably because of the test. Then today went for another interview at Raffles Place at Citibank at Capital Square. This morning i totally forgot about the interview until i called Jason to ask about it. ^^;; The ambience was not bad so i thought i was quite relax there because i didn't really thought much about this job. But i think the interview went quite alright, at least i'm not as tense as yesterday. So now i'm waiting for both jobs' reply.
Now the problem is... if let's say both jobs want me, which should i go for? Tuas (Singapore Epson) - Position: Web Application Support. Pay is $1700. Madeline said that there will be an increment in pay after 3 months, based on my performance. Transport is provided (Like a school bus which sends me to work and home after work. And the bus stops at my house *at least that's what Madeline said*) and this means i can save on transport fee *provided i am not late and miss the bus*. Working hours is abit early, 7.50am to 5+ *i can't remember the time*. Contract is 1 year and renewable. The job scope is more of like web programming which is something that i wanna do and something that my classmates said i was good at. Raffles Place (Citibank) - Position: Bank Officer. Pay is $2000 or even higher. Training is provided. Working hours is 8+ to 5+ *i can't remember the time either*. Contract not clear because the interviewer said it was a 3 months contract while Jason said it was a 6 months contract and renewable. From what the interviewer briefed me, the job sounds a little like data entry but a little different because from what i know, i'm supposed to come up with reports and key in entry and etc. It's not totally an IT job because i am not required to do programming but i will need to use MS Excel and MS Access most or all the time. Banking and marketing knowledge is not needed. Although the job scope is not what i'm looking for but when i was in school, i enjoyed my DOA class (DOA is the module which i studied MS office) and my friends and colleagues said it was something i was good at. So i didn't mind this job.
Any advice which job i should take if both jobs accept me?
14 October, 2008, 12:16 AM
Day 124...
Have been having some family issues lately. After reading dodo's blog, kinda agree with him on some points but.. i mean... ya.. give your parents the respect they deserve but.. do some parents deserve the respect? I respect other people's parents but not my mom. Not after how she treats me. Only a few people knows what happened. Yanbing and dear both told me to forget it even though dear is pissed at my mom too. I know he just wants me to smile again. But when i see her, i really can't smile at all. I just hate her. So what if she's my mom? It doesn't give her the right to insult me like that. And when i tell her not to insult me ever again, if not we will never be mother and daughter again, she just laughs and continues insulting me. I just hate it! ARGH! It's not about whether i got do anything wrong anot but i just don't like the way she say things! And she's my mom for christ sake! I tried explaining to her but she don't even take me seriously. Oh.. how i just hate her! This is not something i can let go and it's not something that i can forgive. I know there's no point in telling anyone about this because they just don't understand how i feel. I don't want people just immediately telling me "forget it because she's your mom" after listening to my story. It makes me feel like you're just giving me some kind of model answer and trying to shut me off and i'm annoying you if i say anymore. I don't want solutions. I don't need advice. I just want someone to listen to me and understand how i'm feeling. You don't have to say anything, just show that you have been listening. I don't know. I've been in a bad mood for quite some time ever since this issue arise. And i've gotten even more sensitive to what people say. I get very agitated easily now especially when i find annoying people who just keeps finding me on msn when i just tell the person to leave me alone and stop looking for me on msn whether if there's anything or there's nothing. They just don't get the meaning of "LEAVE ME ALONE!"
08 October, 2008, 10:41 AM
Day 118....
Yesterday last minute had an agency interview. Then went to meet chuan hui. Had a long chat with her and we went to Ajisen for lunch. *Broke T.T* After that went mac to eat again. XD Chat and chat until JJ comes. Then went straight to West mall to meet my aunt and my mom. Was planning to upgrade or change my phone plan because my bill was way too high since i overused my free sms (without knowing that my free 1000 sms plan already finished -.-). Then because my plan haven't expire, so i can't upgrade nor can i change to starhub or singtel. So i have to stick with m1. And since all the plans' free sms are maxed at 500.. so in order to get 1000 free sms, i had to sign up with another line. Meaning, i got another phone. Got another walkman phone for myself again. XD Then somehow, my mom also got herself a new phone since the current one she's using so happen to spoil so she took the chance to change it. She got herself an LG phone. Pretty sleek in my opinion. I always find LG phones pretty and sleek. But for the function.. i don't really know. But anyway, it should be ok for my mom since it's almost the same as nokia.
Oh yea! I tried cooking mac and cheese on monday. Didn't really turn out nice. Quite bland. Think i didn't add enough salt and it's too oily. I put too much butter. =x Sad.. next time try harder i guess.
I'm still jobless! Rawr!
03 October, 2008, 7:40 PM
Day 113...
Recently something bad happened to suki. Poor thing. Got all of us so worried about him. He got bitten by another dog who lives with him on the head. He almost couldn't pull through. Well.. now he's better but he still has alot of blood clots in his brain so we don't know what side effects does it have on him. Poor suki. Haiz~~ was so upset when i heard the bad news. Wanted to talk to someone but don't know if anybody can understand how i'm feeling.
Aside from the bad news, i'm now having more free time at home. Looking at recipes as usual. Thinking of cooking bento for dear. Was supposed to make bento with him last Saturday but he was so lazy to leave the house so end up, we stayed at home. -.- So.... i have to start whipping up some food. But first, i have to think up of what to cook. ~.~ So many varieties.. don't know what's nice to cook for him and i'm currently jobless so i'm kinda broke. Don't know if got enough money to buy ingredients anot.
Recently i'm addicted to hedgehogs. They're so cute!!! They're like mini versions of porcupines... only that they're not spikey. Here's a video of a hedgehog:
