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Name: Lijing aka Lynn
Birthdate: 14th March 1988
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School: Ngee Ann Poly
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30 October, 2008, 11:28 PM

Day 140....

Since everyone is talking about their own problems, i shall join in too. But first.. let me talk about what happen to me last weekend. Fell sick when i was at dear's place. Made him an apple cake. It's quite nice except that i put too much flour. ._. So anyway, all plans were cancelled. His parents took care of me which i was really touched. I had fever, sore throat, flu and cough. And after seeing the doctor, my medicine cost us $90! And inclusive of about 6 - 7 medicines. Oh my god! And since the antibiotics are very strong and my body can't take it, i always vomit after that.

So anyway, yesterday dear was allowed to book out for a while. So we went to watch a movie "High School Musical 3: Senior Year". Dear was very short temper due to him not having enough sleep. So after the movie, we quarrelled again. It was quite bad. Everyone knows that in a relationship, one has to give in more than the other. I don't know if i'm the one who give in more or him but it doesn't matter because i feel that he gives in more than i do. And like Alif said, i have temper issues which i agree.
But i'm also tired of him throwing his temper for nothing whenever he's tired and he doesn't say sorry after doing that. I realise i'm always the one who ends up saying sorry irregardless of whether i'm the one who's in the wrong. In order to just stop worsening the fight, i just keep mum about some things which i want to say because i know it'll just make it worse. Whenever he's tired, everything he say just sounds so frustrating like as if the whole world did something wrong to him. Can't even start a proper conversation before he blows his top. It's something i know i have to endure because that's him but i get tired too. I don't know how long i can keep this up. He also said so many things that broke my heart so much. Yesterday cried until i vomitted. This afternoon vomitted too.

I really hate my mom and i'm getting so tired of her. I really hate her for keep calling me cheap and such a shameless slut. Why do i have such a mom?! Everytime i go over to dear's place to stay over, i just wish to stay there and not go home. At first i had some progress with my job hunting but until now, i still haven't got any replies. My family and myself is starting to stress myself out. I'm starting to get tired of this home.

Where's that person when you need someone to talk to? I'm losing my friends. Is it because of the way i handle my time? I hardly even talk to yanbing now, nor do i often meet her. Even when we do go out together, i don't know what to say to her. Is it because we're both very quiet people or is it because we so long haven't seen or talk to one another that we don't know what to say? The only friend that i've been hanging out and keeping in touch is Chuan hui. Dear always ask me not to spend all my time on him. Try to spend time with friends so that i won't lose any more friends. But how? Everyone is only free on weekends and i have to spend my weekends with him. How can i spend my time with my other friends? *sigh*

Nowadays since i'm so free, i'm starting to learn more and more recipes. Erm.. as in baking, not cooking food. I don't have that much money to buy all the ingredients to cook up a meal. Wait till i have money to whip up a meal or a lunchbox. Made apple cake last week using Rina (Qing ren) recipe. It's nice. ^^ Wanted to whip up chocolate mousse but since i'm sick, i can't eat so i decided not to. And since this sunday is dear and i's 1 year anniversary, i decided to make a batch of peanut butter cookies for him because i couldn't find any nice gifts for him. =.=

End of my rants