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Name: Lijing aka Lynn
Birthdate: 14th March 1988
Horoscope: Pisces
Loves: wFL, DBSK
School: Ngee Ann Poly
Course: IT
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06 August, 2010, 11:41 PM

Changed my blogskin. Feel like writing out how i feel but i don't know where to begin with. It's about my emo side and why i'm always emo. I didn't like feeling emo but i can't help it. Just like baby said, i'm not strong enough. Or maybe i should correct that sentence... I was never strong. Maybe that's why?

I never felt good about myself. I saw nothing good about myself. A useless and worthless girl that even if i was being thrown to a brothel, nobody would want me. I feel inferior. Maybe that's why i emphasize too much on everything i do even if it's something relaxing like games or shopping. I get agitated so easily like i have a loose button that activates anger. I know it's definitely not adrenline that's behind all these.

Every little thing affects me. Even though there are some times where i don't look like it. I don't expect people to understand me either because it will just all goes down to one word - emo. I don't want people to think that i'm having a relapse of my depression and start treating me better just so to cure me. I know it's hard to get along with me. I also know that being with me makes anyone hard to be natural around with me. Everything have to think twice on what to say.

I wish i can just take things easy...